hate it

I don't hate Christmas but TODAY, THIS YEAR I really hate it. On the top of it, my husband is getting on my nerves. He's such a stupid asshole trying to fool me, thinks that I'm dumb to swallow everything that he comes up with (fuck him). He told me that I think too much, that I'm authoritarian, too strict, a cleaning freak, that I want everything to be done my way which is not true and he does everything his way anyways, whenever he wants (so why complaining). We've been together for some years now  (but living together only a few months) and he still doesn't know me (wondering if he will ever).The only thing that I'm appreciating right now is the fact that I'm home alone; not cooking and not doing anything at all. Taking time to breathe and enjoy the moment.